Little nugs,
I think this whole situation has me in a bit of a tailspin. Friday evening, I couldn’t sleep for the life of me. I was wide awake. I tried to keep myself busy thinking I would get tired, but just never did. Finally, around 1 am, I forced myself to go to bed, but just laid there for 2 hours tossing, turning and itching (including my palms and soles). In fear of keeping Daddy up, I got up and cleaned our bathroom, ate a snack and then sat in the rocking chair and finally feel asleep around 5:30, only to be woke up at 6:15 by Lexi who wanted to play with her new Shopkins toy. (update: I learned the insomnia came from the steroid shot I had gotten earlier that day)
The rest of the day went pretty well. I got my hair done to prepare for Sheila’s wedding next weekend, figured out jewelry and shoes for myself, finalized each of the kids outfits and got my second steroid shot. By 10 pm, I was exhausted and feel asleep on the couch. Thankfully, the transition to our bed went well and I feel asleep right away. Unfortunately at 3: 15, I had to go to the bathroom and was never able to fall back asleep. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt you move, was having some pain in my lower abdomen and in general couldn’t turn off my anxiety for all the potential scary things that could come. What if you are in distress right now and that is why I can’t feel you and you don’t make it, what if something happens to me, am I in early labor now with the abdominal pain? All bad bad thoughts that I just couldn’t turn off. Around 5, I came downstairs had some OJ, a donut hole and started working on some blog posts to keep me busy while I counted kicks/movements, which is the first time I’ve ever sat down and done this with any of the kids. It took a good 30 minutes to feel anything, but then got 10 kicks or movements right away.
Sunday and Monday were pretty uneventful. I spent a lot of time cleaning the house and getting ready for your arrival. I hung up clothes, moved the mattress up on the crib, figured out the outfit we’ll take you home in, got the monitor set up and my pump charged. The itchyness continued throughout the weekend, but it felt manageable.
Hope to know more early next week.
Love,
Mama
Peanut Smiles 